Rogue Podron Mission 4-5: That’s So Bodhi!
All wings report in! This episode: The Bacta War, chapters 25-29.
This week on Rogue Podron, we begin by talking about the x-wing pilots that we know will for sure be appearing in Rogue One. Then, we continue our way through X-wing: The Bacta War, discussing chapters 25-29.
Listener Question of the Week: What else do we have yet to learn about the Vratix culture?
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Sarah’s Corranfic: http://archiveofourown.org/works/8283475/chapters/18976255
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Hosted by Meg, Danny, Saf, and Heath.
IN TWO WEEKS: X-wing: The Bacta War, chapters 30-36.
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Forget it All
Brief warning: this is a very deeply personal post.
There’s a certain sense of betrayal that comes of learning your brain and your body aren’t working as they should. You go on for a long time assuming that your issues aren’t any kind of disorder, they’re just you not trying hard enough. Why would you think otherwise? Why would anyone think otherwise, when there’s nothing visible to show that’s not the truth?
I spent my entire childhood and early adulthood floundering, struggling against an invisible mental block that held me back while my peers leapt ahead. I’ve always been ditzy, forgetful, and easily distracted, finding myself unable to handle what should be easy tasks. For a long time I fought against my own body, trying to reach a potential everyone told me I had, but I couldn’t actually see.
And then, early this year, I was given an answer in the form of a diagnosis. A clear, definable name for a disorder that has plagued me for over twenty years:
Turns out I have ADHD.
Tourist | Two
Humans are easy to read, and Lauren is an open book. She stares at me when I argue that “Something is wrong”, with that summer-storm smile, silent, warm, and threateningly unaware of the way my cheeks burn in response. I want to scream, to pick up the crystalline jug dripping with condensation and hurl it at her face—dripping with condescension. The hot burst of rage is new and alien to me, like discovering a different type of pain—a shattered wrist when no bone has been broken before. I instantly hate her. When that fails, I hate myself instead.
So I stand and smile and she waves me out of her office with a solid, “You’re doing so well!” that doesn’t invite argument, and it’s all I can do to hold my brittle self together until the bathroom door lock clicks beneath my trembling hands. I sink to the floor, hot tears spilling over onto fists pressed against my thighs. Today I am forced to face the reality I have been working so hard to ignore, what would be good news for any transfer other than this, any new body except my own:
Rogue Podron Mission 4-4: Corranfic
All wings report in! This episode: The Bacta War, chapters 19-24.
This week on Rogue Podron, we begin by talking about the awesome Rogue One poster and the doubly awesome Star Wars Rebels episode. Then, we continue our way through X-wing: The Bacta War, discussing chapters 19-24. This includes discussions about how Imperial Erisi is still terrible, another bizarre aspect of Gand culture, the introduction of smuggler Karrde, Corran’s very sad day, and more!
Listener Question of the Week: What would you name your Imperial Star Destroyer / Alderaanian attack cruiser?
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NEXT WEEK: X-wing: The Bacta War, chapters 25-29.
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Experience, Empathy, and Robin
The first time I saw Robin as a work in progress, I was struck almost speechless. A cute little indie game is right up my alley, and a cute little indie game about Chronic Fatigue Syndrome is basically everything I’ve ever wanted. Even better: it’s made by a group of kiwi students who are the sweetest.
Robin’s main mechanic is based off of the Spoon Theory, a common way for chronically ill people to explain their limited energy reserves: as you make Robin perform actions, her energy bar empties until the only option is sleep. It’s simple but effective, and evocative of daily life for someone with Chronic Fatigue. A rapidly depleting energy bar is a part of life for us, not just a game mechanic.
However, though chronically ill people may find their lives reflected in some form in Robin, I suppose we must ask the question: can a game ever actually help able people empathize with those who are chronically ill? Can a game really make someone understand in a way that positively changes their thought patterns?
Yeah, probably.
Rogue Podron Mission 4-3: Bro
Tourist | One
My eyes fly open. I am not where I should be.
White light flashes overhead, stars flicker and flare in the darkness that rings my vision. People in white and blue yell soundlessly around me, their voices drowned out by the ringing in my ears. Panic surges through me first. Then comes the pain.
Utter, blinding agony burns through my body, except for where it doesn’t: dark patches, like voids, that scare me more than what hurts. Places I can’t feel anymore, where parts of me are missing.
I don’t look down at myself—can’t look down, even if I wanted to. Bile rises in my throat, tears burn my eyes, and my head—oh, god, my head—feels as if it’s splitting apart. My heart hammers against my ribcage, struggling against the inevitable.
I’m dying. I feel my body giving up around me, the heaviness tugging at my mind. The doctors seem less frantic now, having realized the same thing as me. They are waiting, their too-bright eyes darting off to the side.
If I close my eyes, I can remember fragments of where I should be: a scorching car, wind lashing my face, Paiden laughing as her soft hands caress the steering wheel, her hair lit by summer sunlight—
I gasp, choke, gripped by panic once more at the thought of Paiden. A nurse leans close as I try to form the sounds that make up Paiden’s name. It’s almost impossible for me, but she seems to understand. Through the cacophony in my mind, I hear the nurse’s words.
“She’s going to be fine.”
I blink in response, it’s all the thanks I can give. The nurse raises her hand to show me a hypodermic needle filled with a clear liquid, her eyebrows drawn together apologetically. There’s no need for words, I understand instantly. My breath quickens. No, I don’t want to lose this, I scream in my head. Don’t let me lose this.
All I can manage is a weak moan. I can’t fight this.
“I’m sorry,” the nurse says, though I barely hear her. “This won’t hurt at all. I’ll see you on the other side.”
I don’t even feel the needle pierce my skin.
∞
There Was Ice (July 16)
A puppy followed us home from a walk, and we literally could not get rid of it, much to its mother’s distress.
Headed down to the snow with a bunch of friends over winter. Except, there wasn’t much snow.
Lack of snow aside, the view from the mountain was gorgeous.
It’s been a while since I’ve uploaded some photos! Here’s some pictures from this year’s venture down to the snow. There was not much snow, but there was a goat.
We also accidentally got adopted by a puppy, who followed us back to our cabin and would not leave us alone.
A bunch of these photos (a lot of the sunset ones and the goat) have just been edited with a new curve I made, which I’m really liking! I want to put some of my curves up somewhere, I just have to figure out where.
Anyways! If you like my photography, and want to see some of my process, I’m going to be putting some of that stuff on my Patreon over the next week. Plus, patrons get early previews of galleries. Woohoo!
Rogue Podron Mission 4 – 2: Jabba the Huff Darklighter and the Country Tatooine Jamboree (with special guest appearances by Elscol, Sixtus, and a Hot Fish
All wings report in! This episode: The Bacta War, chapters 7-12.
This week on Rogue Podron, we have a very hard time staying focused! Before we discuss The Bacta War, we talk a little bit about our latest and greatest Rey’s parentage theory, and even mention Jyn Erso’s newly cast mom. Then, we talk about how Gavin’s family is basically Country Bear Jamboree, what kind of babysitter Corran would be, our latest conspiracy theory regarding Huff Darklighter, more Tycho feels and so much more!
Listener Question of the Week: What are some rumors that Booster could spread about the “restricted section” on his trade station?
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NEXT WEEK: X-wing: The Bacta War, chapters 13-18.
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Rogue Podron Mission 4 – 1: The SUPER DRAMATIC Bacta War
All wings report in! This episode: The Bacta War, chapters 1-6
This week on Rogue Podron, it’s time for the X-wing books once again! Before we dive into The Bacta War, we talk a little bit about our hopes for the upcoming Rogue One tie-in novel, Catalyst. Then, we waste no time gettin’ trashy (and neither does this book). We discuss the first six chapters, including the new Mirax/Corran status-quo, how Wedge is interested in a very specific type of woman, how Flirry Vorru is just literally the worst, an encounter with Gavin’s extended family, and so much more!
Listener Question of the Week: What kinds of secret things is Huff Darklighter transporting on his ship?
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Hosted by Meg, Danny, Saf, and Heath.
NEXT WEEK: X-wing: The Bacta War, chapters 7-12.
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