• Blog,  Personal Posts,  Photography,  Travel

    2016: A Year in Photos

    2016 was a massive year of travel, writing, getting into game development professionally, and taking my health seriously. There were a lot of ups and downs, almost more than any other year of my young life, and I have way too much to say about way too many things.

    So, instead of words, I’m going to let photos do the talking. From both my phone and my DSLR, here’s a year of photos that sums up a lot of my 2017.

    Photos below!

  • Blog,  Blogging,  Diversity & Media Criticism,  Films,  Star Wars

    Where are the Women?: A Star Wars Story

    Warning for Rogue One spoilers.

    For how much we commended Lucasfilm on its great strides towards gender diversity since The Force Awakens, I think a lot of us forgot to look more closely at Rogue One until it was already out. Not everyone—god knows I been pointing out the severe lack of women since last year alongside some friends—but enough. After Phasma, Rey, Maz and Leia, and the diverse background characters in The Force Awakens, perhaps it was too easy to become complacent. Too easy to believe that once we’d taken that step forward, it was impossible to fall behind again.

    Well, apparently fuckin’ not, because Rogue One barely even tries, if I’m completely honest. The tough-white-brunette-as-lead doesn’t really make up for a distinctive lack of other women anymore—not that it ever should have. As much as Rogue One seemed to want to cling to some Star Wars traditions, the sole-white-female-heroine-among-men is one that should have been thrown right out with the opening crawl (though I remain forever broken-hearted at the lack of the crawl).

    Especially when the ancillary material is working more than it ever has to create a diverse galaxy, introducing women like Admiral Rae Sloane, Doctor Aphra, Cienna Ree, Shara Bey, Brand, Sabine Wren, and even more amazing women who veer away from the typical Star Wars films’ leading lady. I would give anything to see any of these women, or women like them, on the big screen, and it’s disappointing to watch Rogue One fail when so many other stories within the universe succeed. Especially because I know Star Wars can do better. Especially because I love Rogue One as much as I do.

  • Blog,  Fiction,  short fiction,  Writing

    Short fiction commissions

    Do you like words? Do you like words written for you? If so, you’re in luck, because I’m opening up short fiction commissions for the first time! It’s like art, but with words.

    What does this mean? Well, it means that you can pay me to write something for you. Examples of my writing include my two serials, my fanfiction (don’t judge my subject matter!), and a short story I wrote last year.

    What I will write: A lot of stuff. I’m most proficient with science fiction and first person present, but I can adapt to any style/POV/tense with relative ease, and am comfortable in a range of genres. What do you want? Let’s talk, I’m up for experimenting!

    What I won’t write:

    • Explicit sex scenes/explicit physical intimacy
    • Super-explicit violence
    • Hateful content
    • Fandoms I have 0 knowledge in
    • Extended fight scenes (if you want an all-action story, I’m the wrong gal!)
    • A script
    • Ongoing stories (AKA multi-chapter)

    But how much????

    • 1000 words: $30 USD
    • Under 5000 words: $35 USD
    • Under 10,000 words: $50 USD
    • Under 15,000 words: $65 USD
    • Anything over 15,000 words will be charged my hourly writing rate.
    • do write for games, but game writing will generally be charged my hourly rate. This can be up to negotiation depending on what you’re wanting.

    If you’re interested, hit me up at [email protected] with your ideas, or your questions! Patrons on Patreon will get preference for commission slots.

  • Blog,  Fiction,  short fiction

    How To Say Goodbye

    I wrote this short story last year and published it on gumroad with the caveat that I would put it on my blog around six months later. Here it is, for everyone to read, though if you want to support me/have it in epub form, feel free to buy it at itch.io.


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    There’s someone new at the swimming hole, the secret place we escape to every summer afternoon when the bell rings. Spring from our seats, dash into sunlight, pile into cars that are more rust than vehicle. It’s a half hour drive through dusty rural roads, and we blast music the entire way. Soon, we know, we’ll be free from this school forever. If only these trips could last as long.

    We figure something is up when we see the new car parked by the hidden hole in the bush, the gateway to the track. Who else knows about our place? Surely nobody. I turn to my best friend, whose forehead is already creasing with bafflement beneath her dark fringe.

    El, upon falling out of the single left door of another car in our entourage, smacks a hand against her face and groans. Someone asks for clarity, El mutters and pushes ahead, sweeping blond hair back. She’s not one to explain when she’s angry, and she sure looks pissed.

    We follow the tangled path down and around through still-blooming gorse until it opens up on a wide, layered plateau of stone and the river beyond. Afternoon sun ripples across the glassy swimming hole, the water clear enough to see the bottom of the opposite shore, but so deep the water nearest our jutting stone platform turns a deep blue-black.

    Standing at the edge of the rock is a guy, his dark hair ruffled from the trek through the bush. He watches us emerge with a wide-eyed humour, and El blows a harsh breath from her nose.

    “Parents wanted to give me a babysitter,” she huffs. “Someone to keep me ‘in line.’ He’s my end-of-school gift. Ugh.”

    He’s a bot. Even without El’s words, we can see it in the way he moves, as if he’s an alien in human skin trying to pass as one of us. Still, he must be a pricey one: dark hair on his arms dances with the summer breeze, emotions flicker across his face almost naturally. One of those companion bots designed to change and grow, updated each year to keep up with their owners.

    There are moments in life where a person meets someone new and their world changes perceptibly. Twine tightens around their heart, drawing them to this person. From the way my lungs fail as our eyes meet, his sparkling with unexplained joy, I know this is one of those moments. It’s unreasonable, right? No person can possibly predict that anyone is destined to be in their lives.

    And yet, I know he is. A bot, bought and given to my friend. Impossible, ridiculous, unbelievable.

    But, my world has already shifted to make space for him to occupy. My heart is tangled up, invisible lines weaving our futures together.

    I take a breath, and even the air tastes different.

  • Blog,  Cosplay & Costuming,  Cosplay photography,  Photography

    PAX Aus Cosplay: Dragon Age

    I only got one shoot in this year, and I’m so glad it was with these two! What gorgeous cosplayers, what gorgeous costumes. I always love the lighting around the trees outside of PAX, too.

    BTW, I don’t know why but in the thumbnails the pictures are kinda blurry. Clicking on them gives you the sharp version! One day WordPress won’t be a piece of junk, maybe.

    Meredith: Mithrilneth Cosplay
    Cassandra: Chocotiel Cosplay
    Photographer: Me, obviously.

    Like my work? Consider supporting me on Patreon!

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  • Blog,  Blogging,  Chronic Illness & Neurological Disorders,  Personal Posts

    Forget it All

    Brief warning: this is a very deeply personal post.

    There’s a certain sense of betrayal that comes of learning your brain and your body aren’t working as they should. You go on for a long time assuming that your issues aren’t any kind of disorder, they’re just you not trying hard enough. Why would you think otherwise? Why would anyone think otherwise, when there’s nothing visible to show that’s not the truth?

    I spent my entire childhood and early adulthood floundering, struggling against an invisible mental block that held me back while my peers leapt ahead. I’ve always been ditzy, forgetful, and easily distracted, finding myself unable to handle what should be easy tasks. For a long time I fought against my own body, trying to reach a potential everyone told me I had, but I couldn’t actually see.

    And then, early this year, I was given an answer in the form of a diagnosis. A clear, definable name for a disorder that has plagued me for over twenty years:

    Turns out I have ADHD.

  • Blog,  Blogging,  Chronic Illness & Neurological Disorders,  Diversity & Media Criticism,  Gaming

    Experience, Empathy, and Robin

    The first time I saw Robin as a work in progress, I was struck almost speechless. A cute little indie game is right up my alley, and a cute little indie game about Chronic Fatigue Syndrome is basically everything I’ve ever wanted. Even better: it’s made by a group of kiwi students who are the sweetest.

    Robin’s main mechanic is based off of the Spoon Theory, a common way for chronically ill people to explain their limited energy reserves: as you make Robin perform actions, her energy bar empties until the only option is sleep. It’s simple but effective, and evocative of daily life for someone with Chronic Fatigue. A rapidly depleting energy bar is a part of life for us, not just a game mechanic.

    However, though chronically ill people may find their lives reflected in some form in Robin, I suppose we must ask the question: can a game ever actually help able people empathize with those who are chronically ill? Can a game really make someone understand in a way that positively changes their thought patterns?

    Yeah, probably.

  • Animal photography,  Blog,  New Zealand Travel,  Photography,  Travel,  Travel Photography

    There Was Ice (July 16)

    It’s been a while since I’ve uploaded some photos! Here’s some pictures from this year’s venture down to the snow. There was not much snow, but there was a goat.

    We also accidentally got adopted by a puppy, who followed us back to our cabin and would not leave us alone.

    A bunch of these photos (a lot of the sunset ones and the goat) have just been edited with a new curve I made, which I’m really liking! I want to put some of my curves up somewhere, I just have to figure out where.

    Anyways! If you like my photography, and want to see some of my process, I’m going to be putting some of that stuff on my Patreon over the next week. Plus, patrons get early previews of galleries. Woohoo!

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  • Blog,  Fiction,  Tourist

    Tourist | About

    Have you ever wondered what it would be like for your mind to be in another body? For your self to no longer be entirely you?

    Tourist, my new serial fiction, explores this idea in a not-too-distant future where artificial minds are almost accepted alongside biological humans. Tourist is both a mystery and a story of self-discovery, and will delve into dark places with mental health and emotional connections.

    After a fatal car crash, Allegra finds her artificial mind placed in a new body previously belonging to a young woman named Melissa. This body comes with more baggage than Allegra expects: Melissa’s best friend claims she was murdered, and seems determined to force Allegra to help her solve the mystery.

    Newly struggling with depression and a shifted sexuality, Allegra must learn to navigate a stranger’s past, new relationships, and dark secrets that threaten to tear apart the lives of those she cares for.

    Like Mountain Sound, I don’t have an exact number of chapters laid out, but I imagine Tourist will end up being around 12 chapters in the end. There is a page to keep track of characters and chapters. Content warnings will also be on this page.

    Tourist will begin on Friday 30 and be updated every three weeks from then on. Similarly to Mountain Sound, chapters will be posted the Wednesday prior on my Patreon.

    I hope you enjoy my new serial! I’m excited to get it started.


    Want early chapters and extra insight on Tourist? Become a Patron!

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